Terrible

So I've got a problem. I can't seem to take care of myself. I put reminders on my phone to try and remember to do things like the my meds, check my sugar and get stuff done. I snooze, ignore, and can't be bothered since I am driving, running errands or somewhere where I don't want to bring that kind of attention to myself. So I sit at another dr appointment where I'll get yelled at, not really, and wonder how I can get better even with Drs trying to keep me accountable. I love my kid and my husband. I know that they will be the ones to suffer. So why can't I get on the ball?